Full Circle vs Full Spectrum | Living in Personal Freedom
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I prefer full spectrum vs full circle moments. Here’s why.
I took Ziggy (my 4 year old Boston Terrier pup) on a walk around town, killing some time before diving into some prep work for the week.
As we turned the corner, the wind blowing through the thin fabric of my jumpsuit, a few early fallen leaves gliding across the grounds, I realized how far I've come.
I was born in Detroit Michigan winter of 1987, to a single mother in a broken home, with not as many resources as we wanted or needed available.
Hard work and sacrifice was the recipe for stability and making ends meet.
And here I was walking the streets of Dearborn Michigan fall of 2022, a successful leader, healer, strategist and CEO, on the cusp of becoming an international bestselling author in the world of spiritualism and personal growth.
Ease, desire, creativity, trust, an activated will and a sweet dose of magic is the repeating recipe for the freedom I live daily.
(Look at the difference in those two bolded sentences. Yes, it WILL require more of you to BE and STAY free. But that is a good thing. More is....more. I help you transition into this in my private programs and courses)
My oh my, what a day. What a moment of realization, of reckoning.
This is what many would call a full circle moment.
But it wasn't for me.
Because I'm not actually where I began, at all, although it may seem like it.
Yesterday, I stood at the intersection of my past, present and future and realized the FULL SPECTRUM of life I now have access to, undoubtedly and unapologetically.
I know what it's like to struggle with identity. And not.
I know what it's like to question belonging in your own family of origin. And then become the center of everyone's attention, awe and admiration.
I know what it's like to be betrayed by those you love the most. And forgive with boundaries.
I know what it's like to have no boundaries because "love", "fear" and "respect" were synonymous. And now hold the highest standards that serve as beautiful expansions and an inspiration for all who experience them.
I know what it's like to give all my power away, defend my circumstances and argue being misunderstood as a crime against me. And to now stand in my knowing that lives beyond my mind and deep in my bones regardless to who, what, where or titles...and still be a student even in my leadership.
I know what it's like to have no filter at all, take everything personally, see it all through the lens of race, politics and economics. And now observe the true agenda, motivations and wounds of others (and self) without harsh criticism and with great navigational skills as we unravel and reweave this society on life and lineage at a time.
I know what it's like to date the same new lover over and over again because they were never enough to fill my own empty holes of love, belonging, trust, validation and acceptance. And meet the same willing, capable, respectable and masculine man who shows his interest in devoting to a "queen like me", almost daily.
I know what it's like to burst into tears the moment after having to exert force to protect myself from being trampled by the sneers of naysayers and mean girls. Now I happily put people in their place, and tend to my temple as body and nervous system as sacred after I hand it all over to my God and guides.
My heart used to be closed to life, tiptoeing in my ego while blaming everyone and everything else, and looking for THE missing link... THE answer to my troubles, challenges and sabotaging behaviors....
Now it's open and I stand and live from the co-creational energy that is my soul at work with my mind, body, spirit, ancestors, God and guiding spirits.
Together, but led by ME, I am a force of beauty, love and truth paving new paths in this life, and those that are coming after it.
That's what this work, my life, this space is all about ya'll.
Women, creating and restoring freedom.
Getting so free, so aligned, so connected to yourself through growth and the healing of your inherited traumas, stories and limitations, that you have access to the full spectrum of your magic and ability to create through spiritual knowing, practical embodiment and divine support.
Here's an insightful invitation for you:
Take a moment today to reflect on where you've been and where you're going.
Right now your focus may be on making the money you need or want...
It may be on learning how to hold boundaries with people you love...
It may be on keeping your promises to your self and committing to focus...
It may be on allowing more love and ease in by vulnerably asking for help...and trusting the unfolding...
It may be on shutting the hell up and feeling what your body and higher self are saying to you through your "triggers"...
It may be on committing to the effort regardless the outcome just so you stop stopping and choose YOU...
It may be something completely different that only you know as you walk your path as the captain of your own fucking ship.
Whatever it is that you're being called to face, explore, bridge, heal, master and embody—for the first time in your life, and prolly for the first time in your whole lineage—DO IT WITH FERVOR.
And remember that I, just like you, am devoted to actualizing myself and path in life.
I'm grateful we've crossed paths for however long my being the woman that I am (and am still / always becoming) inspires you to uncover and be the woman that you've always been called to be as well.
'cause that's all this space and place has ever been, and will always be.
A place to rise in feminine leadership rooted in deep, soulful ANCIENT LOVE.
with love, devotion, and trust on my path,
Ash